It’s time to continue

It is now day 59 of the new year. 59 days since the beginning and 59 days since we woke up one morning and nothing was different other than the digits making up the number of the year. Yet it was a new beginning, a new start for a lot of people, we’ve made it into a beginning and into an opportunity to create yourself anew. A moment to make decisions resulting in you, after this, being a different person. A better person, more closely moulded into the one you’ve always wanted to be. The truth is that if it’s easier to change that time of the year, it is because other people do it to. Other than that, there is no reason to not have a beginning now. You can make a decision any day, any time, that can change your life and probably do that more than the ones you make on new years eve change you. Because, let’s admit, they’re kinda made to be broken. Or at least suspected to be so. And if you make your promise at any other time, you’re reasons are probably better since they’re not partly that it’s what’s traditional to do.

But, anyway, that’s not what I was really going to talk about. Because the problem does not mainly lie in the beginning, we have so many things we want to start to do it does not take a lot for motivation to suddenly flare up. The problem resurfaces a few days, weeks, months, years later. When you remember why this is something you haven’t done before, or have failed to do for a few increasingly rememberable reasons.

Today, I want to motivate you to continue. To remember to be happy over the bad weather, because then no one else will be jogging and you’ll become just a little bit stronger than them. To continue when everybody else quits because that is what will separate you from them, that is what always separates successful people from less successful. They’re on fire. But more importantly, they don’t burn down, instead brighter.

As time goes by, you’ll perhaps learn to make your promises and dreams into routine. You’ll learn that you’re strong enough to actually keep up with things you never thought you’d go through with, and that confidence will lead you to further believe that you can actually keep doing this, this is what you are now. And the time to start continuing is always.

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On the plane

So, the plane trip to France was wonderful!

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And I’m so used to flying with RyanAir that everything I got for free on my Lufthansa flight seemed like a luxury. Food. I got freaking food. Not to mention free Hot chocolate and tea while stopping and waiting in Munich for my plane to Marseille. And I honestly do love the journey, I could spend a lifetime onboard an airplane, reading and writing and drawing. Not because I create any masterpieces, but still.

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Runner

You told me how I always fell in love with cars and not with houses, looked at a backpack with a smile but at a bookshelf with an aching heart. I was always going. I’m a runner and a poet, life pulls me in different directions. Keeps me going and makes my heart want to stay with what I find. I can look out the window of a bus and get the sudden urging need to remember every tree I see, to sit down under every single one and have picnic and the best day of my life. You don’t have to go far, and we don’t have to run, but I have to keep moving so that as many things as possible in this universe get the attention they deserve.

Art can be born out of other things than pain. Yes, how beautiful is not the art of the broken-hearted? I heard someone say once that sad was happy, for deep people, and the problem with pain has always been in its ability to seduce that far overrides the one of happiness. Bittersweetness is the most beautiful feeling I know.

I’m trying to teach myself, trying to learn how you find your source of creativity in light instead. Because I’m starting to realize that the seduction of pain doesn’t mean it’s more satisfactory, it just means that it’s easier. But it’s also weak, and usually selfish, whether we choose to see that side of it or not. I’m trying to choose happiness.

Why do I keep doing things I do not want to do? Why do we all keep on doing things that make us unhappy? It bothers me, bothers me so much, all the things we do for the wrong reasons and all the things we turn to because of fear or anger or despair. Please don’t be the type of person that lets his or her life slowly drip away without anything really happening, because you spend to much time doing things that are not the best or brightest or most alive things you could spend you life doing. Don’t be the type of person that chooses career based on money, money so that you’re sure to survive and sure to be able to spend more time doing things you don’t actually want. If you’re passionate about it, it will show. Things will sort themselves out, you’ll be happy as long as you kick your fear in the ass and go for it. And please don’t be the type of person that goes for the guy or girl that just likes you. That goes for a person who is enough, who is okay and in your league. I hate seeing my friends settle for anything less than someone who makes your stomach flutter and treats you the way you should be treated. That loves you more than life and most of all someone that you would choose over everyone else in the world, over any artist or movie star, even if you were to be given a chance to get one of those. I want you to have a love story worthy of a nobelprize-winning novel. And I want you to stop doing things that do not bring you forward. I’m not gonna tell you to turn of your computer, but while you’re here, do something that’s worth your while. (so, lol, I’m pretty much telling you to get off this blog)