The Mona Lisa

Isn’t it messed up that Leonardo Da Vinci never knew he painted the Mona Lisa? Like he knew he painted a portrait of Mona Lisa, but he didn’t know he painted The Mona Lisa. It’s funny because it used to motivate me to think that every step of his career led up to that painting. That the first stick figure he made was the first draft of all those things he would later create. It helps me to create casually. Even if your creation sucks, it’s practice for the next one. (That is practice for the next one.) And so on.

But then, you never quite reach it. In my head there will come a day when it’s no longer practice for the next one, because I’ve actually reached that point. I’ve made it. But the truth is, we never arrive there, we never know our Mona Lisa. Because it’s not like Da Vinci just painted it and then hung it in the Louvre. He probably just started preparing the next canvas. As far as he knew it might have been just another painting in a long line of paintings, and he never reached “it”, or got “there”, wherever there is.

You Will Get What You Want

And you can call that karma or a result of good goal setting or the grace of God, but that desire inside will claw at you until it gets out, you will fail and fall but the itch in your guts won’t stop and so you’ll continue.

The problem is that you have to really want it. Do you want that body more than you want a relaxed day in from of the computer? Do you want to write or do you just want something written to brag about? Do you actually want to be successful or do you just want the money that follows? Humans are passionate creatures, and we pour water to build our waves of success until they become uncontrollable and break and drag you with them, but you have to get there. You have to know that you will let go of it, but then you will come back, because you have no choice. You will get what you really want, you will get results in whatever it is that your inner being can’t stop doing, can’t stop being.

T minus 30 (days)


5 things I’m stressed out over

  1. I’ve got no job for the summer. Because I was going to maybe be involved in this dance project, but then nothing happened.
  2. Well, I’ve got no plans for life at all pretty much (quite a lot of dreams though).
  3. in 30 days I graduate and I have a million things to do before then.
  4. In 30 days I’ll leave my class in school, my art class, my dance class, my christian school group, all these small communities that I’ve taken for granted.
  5. What if I fail doing everything I’ve ever wanted.

5 things I’m grateful for

  1. I have so many fun things ahead of me during these last few weeks.
  2. How a school class always becomes really social when everyone realises that this will end soon.
  3. This is such a beautiful and bittersweet time.
  4. That I haven’t let fear of uncertainty lead me to seek structure I do not want.
  5. What if I succeed.

Work in progress, the sort of thing it’s fun to be busy with.


The 30 second habit with a lifelong impact

I read an article recently, I’m gonna add a link to it at the end of this post so you can go read it, cause well, it was a good freakin’ article. It spoke about this man. this man whose friends were the top politicians and artists in the world, this man who wrote novels on his spare time but destroys them when they’re finished. this man who had the talent that when he sat in a meeting, he would keep quiet except for a few questions. But those questions, those perfectly times words, would always lead the whole discussion back on track and to what was relevant. He was almost the silent leader, the silent conductor. And when he got asked what his secret was, he answered that when he was young, his grandfather had told him this

Immediately after every lecture, meeting, or any significant experience, take 30 seconds — no more, no less — to write down the most important points. If you always do just this, said his grandfather, and even if youonly do this, with no other revision, you will be okay.

And as the writer of the article put it, He did. And he was. Now, in the article, a few of the benefits of this method are listed. It’s not taking notes, but it’s a way of sorting out what was actually important. A way to change the way you listen. In our world there is so. Much. Talking. So much attention seeking. People shouting out their opinions through Facebook and twitter, begging the world to listen. Or, well, through blogs. I’m not calling myself different. But this is a way automatically start to hear what’s beneath all the words. The underlying patterns of the world. Sorting out the base code of the human mind and not just listening, but then actually hearing. Go read the article, it’s amazing!