The core of us
Selfies.
from my cabin. It’s been a while. (I found the double exposure tool in my editing app, it’s all gonna get weirder from here on.)
Sunday
How often do we not wish that the miracles of the bible were stories about God giving step by step instructions on How to Walk on Water instead of a command Come here, coupled with eye contact and loud waves.
Hiking
The other day I made a homemade retreat, by basically going up to our cabin in the forest by myself for three days.
It was quite nice and quite not lonely, my friends came to visit (I mean I asked them to) and we went swimming and rowing and drank hot chocolate by the fire.
And then I went hiking. 
I walked with my headphones on most of the time, listening to a new album I’d looked forward to. It’s the kind of thing it’s easy to judge yourself for, like “we’re not supposed to use technology when enjoying nature” or whatever. But we could also just not judge ourselves and have fun and take our headphones off when we feel like it and put them back on when we feel like it.
summer hugs
Painting Process (1/2)
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Sweden (a night in spring time)
Tonight I didn’t really feel like going to bed, and didn’t get tired – just more awake – so I saw the sun set and then saw it rise again. It’s 4.37 now and well technicallly the sun is not up, I can just see the gold behind the trees, but the sky is already a light blue. I went jogging a while ago, at like 4. The birds were being so loud. The forest really smelled like forest, the grass like wet grass. Everything was a bit hazy without my glasses, a bit cool toned without the sun, but the bright and clear and lovely. I put on a wool sweater because the time right before the sunrise is always the coldest. The wind still blew through it when I ran, but when I stopped I was wrapped up in the warmth of the forest. We’ll see when I get up tomorrow. I think I’ll just take a nap now, but we’ll see. Goodnight.
(I slept until like noon.)
yellow walls
Me and Bonnie, she is the queen of taking instagram worthy pictures in front of pretty walls and flowers. Sarasota has a lot of both. She’s quite pretty too. And a great person to talk to about art and Jesus.
I’ve been staying with her and a house full of other friends for a week now before I’m going home to Sweden. It’s been good. Honestly, I could stay in this house forever, eating strawberries for lunch and long conversations for breakfast.
And here are some random photos: sketches I won’t be able to fit in my suitcase when I go, and Katie being her always photogenic self. Her room is great to sneak into when you need cuddles, good conversations and fairy lights.
(Last goodbye from Florida)
What my indecisiveness doesn’t want to hear.
You know what? Sometimes I think God almost gets more excited about our own will than His. I think He sees our ideas and dreams and just sorta stands there clapping His hands.
aHHH, let’s think about what we actually think about the character of God.
If we do believe that He is a loving, good, kind father, it changes how we approach Him with ideas and choices. We can run like kids to Him, excited to show the new things in our minds. We jump up and down, asking what He thinks and He smiles. Of course He might need to sit us down and talk about some of the things, maybe sometimes we don’t have it completely right. But we don’t have to approach Him timidly. We know who He is, and so we don’t have to hide ourselves behind our own backs. Stop being so bothered about the will of God and run to Him with everything you have. Your mind is intertwined with His. Your heart getting there.
and that’s why your will to please God is the main thing to ensure you do so.
(Someone said that to me once, that your will to please God pleases Him. I thought it was advice along the way – words of comfort while I waited for that clear, loud voice – when in reality, it’s an answer all in itself.)
Me and my Clara and my Florida
(I promise that list filled up with more things, but we really wanted to get some drinks in downtown. We also toured libraries and went to cafés and saw the only view in Sarasota and went to the beach and the movies and ALL THE THINGS you need to do before leaving a place and your roommate for a while.)
Me
and my Clara
and my Florida.
April 22nd 2018
Today I took a walk as the rain started to fall. Someone taped this on the sidewalk. I tried to find meaning in it, but I also try to find meaning in everything these days. I half expected someone to jump out of the bushes to scare me.
And then as the sun started to set I stood painting under the roof of our carport. There’s something nice about painting when the light starts dissapearing, you stop caring about the details since you can’t see the details. If it’s messy, I can clean it up later. I think I’m also gonna add yellow at the bottom, to make it look like some upside down sunset, but I went inside because all the insects were attracted to the light and I already had three mosquito bites on my left hand.
That’s it.
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