What summer is like

I was running today and I was listening to music and I almost didn’t hear the sound of water running along the side of the road, ringing like bells as it swept across the rocks. And I felt bad for not really listening to it. The sun was almost setting and the grass on the side of the road was golden. The trees in the forest were turning blue from the shadow of dusk.

It was summer and I should enjoy it more, instead of just running past it, instead of listening to music in my headphones. But then I stopped feeling bad and enjoyed the music. And I enjoyed the sound of the water in the background as well, and the sight of the trees. When you feel bad for not enjoying something enough you are actually enjoying it. You are just stuck in guilt at the same time. To fully enjoy it you can do exactly what you’re already doing.

Light means shadow

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Summer keeps slipping away from me, running through my fingers in a blur of laughter and sun. sand has ended up in the corners in my room and I’ve gotten more freckles than I can count and for once I have time to do what I actually want to do, but also time to feel guilty about not doing it. About getting stuck in front of the computer instead of reading in the sun and checking out the new tv shows instead of going long boarding. I love the clear sky but long for rain and the excuse to stay inside. What I upload here though, are pictures of actual summer, the things that my soul loves, that my heart breathes, that fight to make me see more than myself and every now and then find their way beneath my skin.
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