(no)tes.

Posted on January 13, 2017 by Eirians under notes

I was going to write something on this blog today.

But then I thought (no).

But then I thought yes. Because I don’t really have anything I feel like saying right now, but I have tons of notes on my phone and on various pieces of paper. So here are some of the things I’ve thought and written down lately:

Growing up is a bit like biting into a cloud and expecting the chewiness of marshmallows, or the taste of childhood dreams, but just finding your own teeth.
Fiction is a wonderful way of describing things that are real, through things that are not.
It’s a big thing, to deal with your feelings and know who you are.
Oh to not collapse under the weight of your own breathing.
Maybe we’re all just scared that our demons are the only ones who actually know who we are.
(There’s nothing under your skin. There’s no one beneath your bones.)
When you don’t want to have the made up responsibilities associated with being human, remember that you don’t.

Good night, sleep well, sweet dreams.

Weather Change

Posted on January 5, 2017 by Eirians under life

The 2nd of January:

The 3rd of January:

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Honestly, what’s going on? This horrible winter weather is good though, what January is supposed to be like. It makes me want to stay inside and listen to good music. (Like this amazing live Bon Iver concert: https://youtu.be/YJNi7aRwUzU )

2016

Posted on December 31, 2016 by Eirians under life

The thing is, 2016 was a good year. Great year, 9/10 (always leave space for things to get better).

Because one of my biggest fears is that – because of fear – I’ll never get to do any of the things I want to do. But this year I moved away from home for the first time, lived abroad. Had several different lifestyles and different jobs. I was challenged and matured and met a whole new family of friends. Got to go to the US, Kenya, Denmark, Germany, Hungary, Austria, and then Germany again. That’s actually crazy?? I’ve lived in 2016 for a lifetime. And those are the kind of years I want. Let’s dare to believe that things get even better.

Golden paper on the table so that we could make party hats. We look fabulous.

Self image

Posted on December 31, 2016 by Eirians under notes

We have an image in our mind of our physical appearance. I tried on the idea of pink hair. And I think I do have pink hair. So I coloured my hair pink. But don’t put into your mind that you’re supposed to look like someone else, because that will mess you up when you meet a mirror.

Christmas is Sick!

Posted on December 28, 2016 by Eirians under life

Literally. I came home from work and threw up. That was the 23rd. The following days are a bit hazy in my mind. I’ve been on a mattress in the living room, and today is the first day I’ve been able to walk without my legs shaking.

Hope your Christmas has been better and I keep my hopes up for the New Years.

Darkest night

Posted on December 21, 2016 by Eirians under life

It’s the night of the darkest day of the year. 21st of December, the winter solstice. In the very north of Sweden the sun didn’t even rise above the horizon, which I guess it did here even though I haven’t really seen it in a while.

On a lighter note I highlighted my hair today. I bet you could make something poetic out of that, but I’m not really going to. Looks great though. Even better without the tin foil, I promise.

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Good niight.

Kenya Art Journal – 13/13

Posted on December 20, 2016 by Eirians under Artwork

The end! Summary of what books I read during the trip, and about that time I fell into the ocean with my bag.

Digital Art

Posted on December 18, 2016 by Eirians under Artwork

It’s easier to not finish things on the computer, because there’s no physical reminder. Just unfinished files hidden away somewhere on a harddrive. And that’s where all my attempts at digital art end up. But today I actually finished something (!!) so here you go. very simple, but still. (Though I need to figure out how to make everything look less pixelated!!)

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Posted on December 10, 2016 by Eirians under notes

I know who I am, so you don’t have to

Some do

And that’s nice

But you don’t have to

Art and Stuff in Vienna

Posted on November 28, 2016 by Eirians under Artwork

We spent approximately 30 hours in Vienna. And during that time we very spontaneously visited the Albertina museum, which kind of exceeded expectations.

First: this hipster picture I’m very proud of.

Next: some of the art. This one is called black on black. I’m not kidding.

And here we have some water lilies by Monet. When I was a kid I read a book about this. About a little girl with the same name as me, who travelled with her grandfather to Paris to see Monets water lilies. I was thinking about that story as we looked at this and it was a tiny bit surreal.

And here are some of Degas ballet dancers (I’m trying to make it sound like I know what I’m talking about), a painting by Matisse, and then a few others I don’t really know anything about but they look nice.