The beginning of spring
Category Archives: life
Flowers and snow
At the moment
I do not precisely love the place I’m in right now and find myself elsewhere in my mind, not just up in the clouds with my dreams and ideas, but somewhere else as in I like the future better than I like now. It’s a trap, and I know that, because future is just another name for the now that is to come and by hiding further into the future I’ll never reach it, sometimes I just have to remind myself that there’s always a purpose for me being right where I am now, and perhaps tomorrow I’ll be somewhere else.
Sunshine in the rain
I like it when the weather is feeling slightly confused.
Gift
Look at this beautiful scarf my friend got me from Vietnam.
I forgot my heart
Sometimes I get so wrapped up in things I want to do and feel like doing and don’t feel like doing and kinda have to anyway, that I forget to stop thinking. I forget to feel life, and start to experience it simply with my mind. And then I’m suddenly shaken alive, God wakes my soul up, and so I go back to feeling. I feel everything and it’s like having an additional sense. Or bigger than that, like the way I normally go around, thinking about stuff and experiencing them with all my senses, is fine. But what a poor way to live. And when I go back to happiness that warms my heart and tears that wrecks it, it’s like all my senses had lost their meaning until now when my heart feels what it knows so it can believe it.
Early spring
The air is crispy fresh and that’s what I’ve missed the most. Also, today I saw the first.. Hepatica I think it’s called in english? And dear friends, to me that flower is the banner of spring, it means winter is beaten.
^Chilling watching some Pretty little liars, relatively unrelated to the rest of the post but randomness is my motto.
It bothers me a bit
People that work exclusively as a group, that look so lost when they have to stand on their own. And people that don’t want to tell me things they do because apparently I’m too… kindhearted. When a group of people are so wrapped up in the way they think and always have that when they get an outside perspective they do not want to hear it. And this is a bit more extreme than my friends, but when people try to take you down to their level so that you can’t judge them anymore and they won’t feel as bad about what they do? It bothers me a bit. People in general find it so much easier to ignore things in their silent minds than when they hear about it from someone else, and a lot of time they quiet that outside voice to quiet their conscience. It’s a classic case of I can put a hand over the mouth of my mind but not over yours.
Dance shows
My dance school always has this big dance show in the spring time, and I love it. I love the time spent on stage and I dread the moment I have to leave it, but I almost love the waiting time more. The minutes before going on stage and the time between the shows that you spend backstage. Somehow I have this dream in my head of myself then, imagining I’m a dancer in New York who got accepted to an exclusive school of ballet, and that I spend the dark evenings carrying my dance bag on the buses between my auditions.
Summertime
I want those days back. We’re on the verge of spring now, and I know, I just know, that summer will be here in the blink of an eye. Unfortunately, then it will disappear just as fast.
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